Prayer for myself: Lord I ask that you forgive me of all things I have done that was not pleasing to you. I ask that you forgive me my negative thoughts, deeds, and language. I forgive myself for all those things I have done that were not in line with the life God has for me. I forgive myself of all the pain I hold and I release it.
Forgiveness is one thing that everyone says we should be able to give freely, but it’s the hardest thing to do. It’s even harder when the person you need to forgive is yourself. Last week I did something I haven’t done in a long time. I gave too much of myself to someone I barely knew. It was nothing physical, but rather thoughts, feeling and ideas. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but in my mind, it should have been something that was giving freely overtime instead of in an interview like conversation.
I couldn’t believe I did it, but even more surprising, I couldn’t believe how much it bothered me. I mean it really bothered me. I beat myself up. I ate as I pondered why I did it. I ate as I beat myself up. Before putting another snack in my mouth, I sat back and took a breath. What are you doing? Are you seriously going to let this bother you this much? I shook it off and went to bed.
When I woke up I couldn’t believe it was still on my mind. It was then that I really got how much the situation bothered me. It was also then that I knew I had to let it go. I looked at my self in the mirror and had a conversation with myself…out loud. I forgave myself. I forgave myself for giving too much of me so quickly. I forgave myself for not feeling I could say “that’s none of your business”. I forgave myself for not listening and trusting myself more. Even after all this time. I told myself what’s done is done. There is no going back, only forward. You know now what you still need to work on and it’s ok. It’s not something to carry with you. It’s done. There is no going back to correct it. Let it go. I forgive you.
It was a freeing moment for me, as well as a lesson. Sometimes we need to forgive ourselves of the trespasses we make against ourselves. We need to be able to forgive ourselves, get up and keep moving forward.
Is there something you need to forgive yourself for so you can move forward? Is there a regret you are holding on to that is time to let go of? Remember, we are forgive that we may forgive, and you are included in that number.
Prayer for you: Learning to love – Psalms 86:5
For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.
